My copy of The Marigold Tarot arrived this week! Needless to say I’m tickled.
For some of us, the devotional path is the label we place on the thing we’re doing anyway. We fall in love, cultivate relationship, and see the bonds between beings as a primary language, so to speak. It’s a natural way of being. Placing a name on this way of being can feel like a significant homecoming to some, a less noteworthy instance to others. Some people feel motivated to discover what it means to have long walked the devotional path while others are content to allow relational dynamics to unfold as they will, without lots of input from outside commentary.
People who find that relational dynamics are an entirely natural way of organizing the seen and unseen worlds sometimes make the argument that this is a great way of doing things – and it is. It’s one path among many, and it has its distinctive advantages as well as its own potential drawbacks. Some people come to this path because they made a deliberate choice based on these advantages and drawbacks; they felt that organizing the seen and unseen worlds in a relational way was beneficial in some way, or at least beneficial enough to give it a shot.
These two groups aren’t terribly distinct in my mind, and certainly there’s no reason to worry which group you fall into unless you’re really inclined to play along at home. I started thinking about things this way because there’s a slight difference when between these groups when it comes to the practice of devotion. When it comes to refining the techniques of organizing the seen and unseen worlds into relational models, some people choose to fall back on innate patterns while others are willing to experiment; some are willing to commit to a deliberate practice while others are comfortable where they’re at.
It’s probably no secret that I tend to be pretty comfortable where I’m at. I resist change even as I hope for better things; I halt at making difficult choices even as I wish that my life was different. Fortunately(?) I’m surrounded by some very tricky Powers. They’ve helped me develop a bit of a backbone even as I struggle to dissolve it into lethargy. I’m trying some sadhana right now and not doing intensely great at it but I’m doing OK.
I care about deepening my relationships and about going further in my practice; I’m greedy and I want more experiences, which means that I have to commit to doing something different than I’ve done. I can’t just relax into the status quo even though I want to. Sometimes it’s very hard to keep my highest ideals in mind, but They’re always right there, ready for me to remember Them.
The clock’s running down on my first divination services sale. I’ve never offered a discount on readings before, and until March 25th you can take advantage of 25% off the normal rate of $40. (Sale ends March 25th at midnight.)
To schedule a reading, visit my divination services page and fill out the request form. I’ll get back to you promptly, and schedule the reading once payment is received. Thanks for all the support you’ve shown to this sale. I won’t be offering these very frequently, so this is a great chance to get a reading done.
I’ve been reading through Six Ways by A. Wachter (a very helpful book), and he’s talking about how important it is to identify the thinking that arrests our magic. After some years of feeling at a serious low tide point magically speaking, I finally feel like I’ve turned a corner; the current is flowing again, just a little, and I’m feeling a bit like my old self. Still, there’s lots of work to be done. So I got to thinking, what kind of mental obstacles am I putting in the way of my magic?
To start with, I have deep-seated ideas about my own capabilities. I don’t think I’m capable of success. With regards to art, I don’t think I’m capable of making things that people like. With regards to my life, I don’t think I’m capable of crafting the kind of life I want to have. I expect that I must always settle for less because the systems of power that mete out resources are flawed and unfair. I expect that I will always have less than I need, or want, or desire, or deserve. I expect no satisfaction or fulfillment in life. I expect that I will always wrestle with these desires and never really experience peace because desire is a problem with no lasting solution. Basically, I expect failure in every aspect of my life, in some way, eventually.
Laying it out like this, this is a pretty bleak perspective on the world and embodied existence, but it’s one that many people are no doubt familiar with. Life has not given us the experiences upon which we can base a hopeful outlook. Even though I draw strength from spiritual traditions that teach that hopefulness is an essentially necessary trait, I have never cultivated that kind of optimism for very long. I look around me at people who have as little as or even less than I have and wonder why I should expect my life to be any different than theirs – or any different than my life has been thus far. What evidence is there to base hope upon?
Needless to say, none of this is a very good foundation for building magical success on – or success of any variety. Wachter says that a change in thinking is required for magical success, and that magic can help accomplish this change. Now that I’m feeling like I have some numinous potency happening again, perhaps I can actually do some of this work.
But of course, all this thinking is highly recursive and the first thing that comes to mind when considering making this change is, “why should I? why should things be different? shouldn’t I simply adjust my expectations to something matching the current evidence?”
I’m not a believer in abundant thinking or whatever the hell it’s being called now. The one time I managed to get it to work for me I got what I wanted – and was then ripped off for several hundred dollars’ worth of my labor. I can perhaps be forgiven for feeling that the whole business is a big of a monkey’s paw situation.
Still, I’m not satisfied with things as they are now. Since losing one of my part time jobs I’m earning less than half of what I need to really support myself; although there are opportunities on the horizon, they are far enough away that the day-to-day grind really pinches. Even if the practical pieces of this puzzle remain as they are, my thinking needs to change, if only for the sake of my mental well-being.
So I’ll try working some magic and see if I can’t get a few things to fall into place. In the meantime, I’m looking forward to expanding my divination skills to include crystal gazing. I’m pretty decent at scrying already but never thought about trying the traditional crystal ball. That is, not until I finished a massive half-yard embroidery project that is the perfect tablecloth for a crystal ball. Now it seems that will be the next major tool I invest in. A friend is passing along an obsidian sphere that she no longer needs, so I’m anticipating giving that a happy new home. I’m also hoping to find what I want at an upcoming rock and gem fair taking place near me next month. I’m also drinking loads of tea lately in an effort to reduce and eventually eliminate caffeine consumption for the next few months (we’ll see how well that goes!). I’m enjoying lots of great tisanes that I might have never gotten around to otherwise, so that’s actually pretty cool.
Just a reminder, I’ve got a divination sale happening right now to help me raise funds to go on pilgrimage to India later this year. Readings are usually $40 for a 45 minute reading, and are 25% off right now – just $30! Send me a message if you’d like to schedule a reading. My turn-around time right now is less than 24 hours.
I received my copy of the Numinous Tarot this week! This colorful deck was a Kickstarter project; it was created with diverse and inclusive artwork.
I’m happy to have backed this campaign, and I hope the artist’s work reaches many people. I’m looking forward to reading for clients and for myself with this deck. If you’re interested in buying it, visit the artist’s website; once Kickstarter rewards are mailed out, additional decks and sets will be available for purchase.
If you’d like a reading with this deck – or any of my other great decks – visit my Divination Services page and send me a request. Remember, I’m offering a 25% off special right now to help me raise money to go on pilgrimage to India. Readings are normally $40 but until May 25th they’re just $30.
It’s time to weed my book collection! I have a handful of specialty witchcraft, pagan, and pagan-adjacent books to offer. I’m happy to answer questions about any of them.
Payment through PayPal only. Shipping cost based on weight of item and class of mail, and is calculated prior to purchase; international shipping is available but likely to be quite pricey (sorry, I have no control over this). Buyer is responsible for any subsequent fees, including customs. Comment to express interest. (Crossposted to local sales groups and my public FB page.)
- Witchcraft and Sorcery of the Balkans (HC; like new) $80 + shipping
- Culture-Bound Syndromes, Ethnopsychiatry, and Alternative Therapies (interesting reference for shamanism and related subjects. HC; excellent condition) $17 + shipping
- Memento Mori (PB; excellent condition) $25 + shipping – HELD
- Sabat Magazine: The Maiden Issue (PB; like new) $15 + shipping
- Ancient Faiths Embodied in Ancient Names (HC, vol II only, first printing; 1,000 pages, pub. 1869. Marbled end papers, embossed metallic designs on cover and spine. Interesting reference volume) $80 + shipping
- Tantraraja Tantra (HC, 2 vols; like new) $30 + shipping
- The Language of the Corpse (HC; like new) $35 + shipping – HELD
All books have been carefully stored in the home of a collector away from excessive light and heat. I live with cats and occasionally burn incense; the books have no abnormal odor I can detect, only normal booky smell.
I have the enormous opportunity to travel to India on pilgrimage later this year. This is very exciting and it’s taken several weeks for the whole concept to sink in. To support this once-in-a-lifetime experience, I’m working hard to earn the necessary funds. (If you want to donate directly to my fundraising efforts, you can visit my GoFundMe page.)
To that end, I want to offer a special rate on divination for one month. Instead of the usual $40, readings are just $30 until May 25! Readings take approximately 45 minutes to complete, so this is a great rate.
I’ve been reading professionally since I was 18 – nearly 20 years! I love helping people discover solutions to spiritual problems, uncovering aspects of their personal development, and discerning greater clarity in emotional matters. Let me know if I can help you with questions regarding spirit work, personal development, decision-making, spirit communication, and other specialized concerns. Just fill out the form on the Divination Services page and I’ll take it from there.