Three more days in divination sale – ends May 25th

The clock’s running down on my first divination services sale. I’ve never offered a discount on readings before, and until March 25th you can take advantage of 25% off the normal rate of $40. (Sale ends March 25th at midnight.)

To schedule a reading, visit my divination services page and fill out the request form. I’ll get back to you promptly, and schedule the reading once payment is received. Thanks for all the support you’ve shown to this sale. I won’t be offering these very frequently, so this is a great chance to get a reading done.

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Identifying obstacles

I’ve been reading through Six Ways by A. Wachter (a very helpful book), and he’s talking about how important it is to identify the thinking that arrests our magic. After some years of feeling at a serious low tide point magically speaking, I finally feel like I’ve turned a corner; the current is flowing again, just a little, and I’m feeling a bit like my old self. Still, there’s lots of work to be done. So I got to thinking, what kind of mental obstacles am I putting in the way of my magic?

To start with, I have deep-seated ideas about my own capabilities. I don’t think I’m capable of success. With regards to art, I don’t think I’m capable of making things that people like. With regards to my life, I don’t think I’m capable of crafting the kind of life I want to have. I expect that I must always settle for less because the systems of power that mete out resources are flawed and unfair. I expect that I will always have less than I need, or want, or desire, or deserve. I expect no satisfaction or fulfillment in life. I expect that I will always wrestle with these desires and never really experience peace because desire is a problem with no lasting solution. Basically, I expect failure in every aspect of my life, in some way, eventually.

Laying it out like this, this is a pretty bleak perspective on the world and embodied existence, but it’s one that many people are no doubt familiar with. Life has not given us the experiences upon which we can base a hopeful outlook. Even though I draw strength from spiritual traditions that teach that hopefulness is an essentially necessary trait, I have never cultivated that kind of optimism for very long. I look around me at people who have as little as or even less than I have and wonder why I should expect my life to be any different than theirs – or any different than my life has been thus far. What evidence is there to base hope upon?

Needless to say, none of this is a very good foundation for building magical success on – or success of any variety. Wachter says that a change in thinking is required for magical success, and that magic can help accomplish this change. Now that I’m feeling like I have some numinous potency happening again, perhaps I can actually do some of this work.

But of course, all this thinking is highly recursive and the first thing that comes to mind when considering making this change is, “why should I? why should things be different? shouldn’t I simply adjust my expectations to something matching the current evidence?”

I’m not a believer in abundant thinking or whatever the hell it’s being called now. The one time I managed to get it to work for me I got what I wanted – and was then ripped off for several hundred dollars’ worth of my labor. I can perhaps be forgiven for feeling that the whole business is a big of a monkey’s paw situation.

Still, I’m not satisfied with things as they are now. Since losing one of my part time jobs I’m earning less than half of what I need to really support myself; although there are opportunities on the horizon, they are far enough away that the day-to-day grind really pinches. Even if the practical pieces of this puzzle remain as they are, my thinking needs to change, if only for the sake of my mental well-being.

So I’ll try working some magic and see if I can’t get a few things to fall into place. In the meantime, I’m looking forward to expanding my divination skills to include crystal gazing. I’m pretty decent at scrying already but never thought about trying the traditional crystal ball. That is, not until I finished a massive half-yard embroidery project that is the perfect tablecloth for a crystal ball. Now it seems that will be the next major tool I invest in. A friend is passing along an obsidian sphere that she no longer needs, so I’m anticipating giving that a happy new home. I’m also hoping to find what I want at an upcoming rock and gem fair taking place near me next month. I’m also drinking loads of tea lately in an effort to reduce and eventually eliminate caffeine consumption for the next few months (we’ll see how well that goes!). I’m enjoying lots of great tisanes that I might have never gotten around to otherwise, so that’s actually pretty cool.

Just a reminder, I’ve got a divination sale happening right now to help me raise funds to go on pilgrimage to India later this year. Readings are usually $40 for a 45 minute reading, and are 25% off right now – just $30! Send me a message if you’d like to schedule a reading. My turn-around time right now is less than 24 hours.



New tarot review/walkthrough – The Numinous Tarot

I received my copy of the Numinous Tarot this week! This colorful deck was a Kickstarter project; it was created with diverse and inclusive artwork.


I’m happy to have backed this campaign, and I hope the artist’s work reaches many people. I’m looking forward to reading for clients and for myself with this deck. If you’re interested in buying it, visit the artist’s website; once Kickstarter rewards are mailed out, additional decks and sets will be available for purchase.

If you’d like a reading with this deck – or any of my other great decks – visit my Divination Services page and send me a request. Remember, I’m offering a 25% off special right now to help me raise money to go on pilgrimage to India. Readings are normally $40 but until May 25th they’re just $30.

Specialty books for sale!

It’s time to weed my book collection! I have a handful of specialty witchcraft, pagan, and pagan-adjacent books to offer. I’m happy to answer questions about any of them.

Payment through PayPal only. Shipping cost based on weight of item and class of mail, and is calculated prior to purchase; international shipping is available but likely to be quite pricey (sorry, I have no control over this). Buyer is responsible for any subsequent fees, including customs. Comment to express interest. (Crossposted to local sales groups and my public FB page.)


  • Witchcraft and Sorcery of the Balkans (HC; like new) $80 + shipping
  • Culture-Bound Syndromes, Ethnopsychiatry, and Alternative Therapies (interesting reference for shamanism and related subjects. HC; excellent condition) $17 + shipping
  • Memento Mori (PB; excellent condition) $25 + shipping – HELD
  • Sabat Magazine: The Maiden Issue (PB; like new) $15 + shipping
  • Ancient Faiths Embodied in Ancient Names (HC, vol II only, first printing; 1,000 pages, pub. 1869. Marbled end papers, embossed metallic designs on cover and spine. Interesting reference volume) $80 + shipping
  • Tantraraja Tantra (HC, 2 vols; like new) $30 + shipping
  • The Language of the Corpse (HC; like new) $35 + shipping – HELD

All books have been carefully stored in the home of a collector away from excessive light and heat. I live with cats and occasionally burn incense; the books have no abnormal odor I can detect, only normal booky smell.

Divination Special!

I have the enormous opportunity to travel to India on pilgrimage later this year. This is very exciting and it’s taken several weeks for the whole concept to sink in. To support this once-in-a-lifetime experience, I’m working hard to earn the necessary funds. (If you want to donate directly to my fundraising efforts, you can visit my GoFundMe page.)

To that end, I want to offer a special rate on divination for one month. Instead of the usual $40, readings are just $30 until May 25! Readings take approximately 45 minutes to complete, so this is a great rate.

I’ve been reading professionally since I was 18 – nearly 20 years! I love helping people discover solutions to spiritual problems, uncovering aspects of their personal development, and discerning greater clarity in emotional matters. Let me know if I can help you with questions regarding spirit work, personal development, decision-making, spirit communication, and other specialized concerns. Just fill out the form on the Divination Services page and I’ll take it from there.


Back from SpiritCon

The last weekend of March was UT’s first convention-style pagan event. It took place is Layton, just a few minutes north of downtown Salt Lake City. I was graciously invited to present, so I prepared my Beginning Devotional Practice session for sharing.

The event had just over 100 attendees, which seems pretty good for a first-time event. The planning committee is already planning next year’s event; I’m looking forward to being a part of 2019’s SpiritCon in one way or another.

I spent several months preparing my vending table; I had so much stuff to sell that I couldn’t fit it all on the tables allotted to me. I sold tarot wraps, tarot pouches, altar cloths, shrine boxes, linocut prints, wraps, skirts, and my books. I didn’t sell as many things as I hoped to but this just means that I have a substantial Etsy shop update that I can make.


New shop listings!

It’s been a long time coming, but I finally made a shop update. You can find new tarot wraps and pouches; more things are being added throughout the week, so check back to see what’s new.

damask cloth

I have several new tarot wraps for sale. These are great because they unfold to become and spread cloth, then wrap up securely to protect your deck. They’re useful when you need to travel light and don’t want to mess with lots of boxes and bags. I’ve made several for myself and use them often.

black bag

If you prefer a more traditional way of storing your cards and divination tools, you can choose from the many drawstring bags I have for sale. This one is made with high quality pure black velveteen; all pull closed with a satin ribbon and several are trimmed with braid and other details.

In it together

Several weeks ago I received a blow to my personal life that left me emotionally unbalanced. Though I’ve gradually come to grips with this change it has left me seeking answers – why did this happen? how do I fix this? what help can I ask for? I turn to my gods and Powers because, aside from all the practical measures I’ve taken, I don’t know what else to do.

As a polytheist, I don’t demand omnipotence of my gods. I don’t require them to have authored everything in my life. This also means that I have to accept certain limits on their influence – there may be things that they can’t (or won’t) influence. Even so, I’ve seen firsthand just how perfectly things can work out thanks to Their presence in my life. I tried begging and bargaining for things to go back to the way they were, but that didn’t happen. Perhaps they didn’t want to help in this manner, or couldn’t influence the situation to any further degree, or felt it wasn’t in my best interest. I don’t know. It doesn’t much matter.

Some people pursue religious engagement when things are going well. They are grateful for the status quo and express that gratitude in prayer or ritual. When things get rocky, they abandon their practice, preferring to focus on other ways to solve their problems. Maybe they feel let down and abandoned by their Powers, and so don’t want to speak with Them until things are smooth again. Other people don’t bother with the Powers unless they are in frightening circumstances, and then the prayers and worship become a priority.

Although I don’t like admitting it, I have a tendency to be the second type of person. I’ll let my practice slide when things are going well because, well, things are great and I don’t need to do anything except show up to life. When things get rocky my prayers get a little more heartfelt. While sitting at the altar a few weeks ago trying to cope with the stress of my newly-uncertain circumstances, I looked into the sweet painted eyes of one of the murtis and felt such tender compassion.

If I wanted omnipotent gods I suppose I could have them. Some of the traditions that influence my practice and belief have omnipotent deities. And I suppose I believe in that omnipotence but it’s a divine quality that’s far removed from my perspective. It doesn’t much matter to me. What matters – now and in that moment at the altar – is not that the gods stretch out their hands to fix my problems, but that They are present to suffer with me.

Solutions to life’s problems are great, and I do feel that the Powers offer these but there is too much suffering and anguish for me to believe that any meticulous omnipotence is at work on the smallest level. (Even if I trust my teachers and think that there is, this isn’t an understanding that I grasp very firmly at this time.) Right now omnipotence isn’t a major concern. Compassion, suffering with me, is. I need gods that share my life and struggles, that are responsive to my tears, and that show their care through sacred presence freely given. Suffer with me, Beloveds; let me know that I’m not alone in these things. This is something worth believing in.

The interior stance

In my writing and conference sessions I sometimes talk about how devotional practice is essentially an emotional experience – it is something that flows from the interior world to the exterior world via the expression of emotional sentiments. However, the activities we adopt as expressions also act as stimulants for emotions we wish to have; that is, we can aspire to the emotional experiences characteristic of the devotional path – we aren’t expected to come fully loaded with everything we have the capacity to feel. The expressions are containers for both what we already feel and what we hope to feel.

I’ve struggled with my practice for a while now and I finally hit on what was challenging me. I’m not feeling the interior sentiments that I hope to feel. Even though I’m doing the same things, I’m not feeling the same things. I keep hoping that the same actions will evoke the same emotional reactions and they haven’t.

My personal solution for this (and it’s not the only solution or the only correct solution) is to simplify my actions a little bit and focus more on correcting my interior stance. I’m going to focus more on being grateful for the opportunity to worship and practice, and less on what I’m actually doing. There are times when perhaps the right course of action is to lean into the doing and take refuge in the repetition, but right now I need to work on my interior stance. I need to get my heart and head back in the right place.

There are so many potential containers for sentiment; indeed, we are limited only be our imagination and ability to see potential containers. Our entire lives are filled with the opportunity to recall, experience, hope for, and share the sentiments of the devotional path. Sometimes that takes us in front of the altar, but that’s only one possible venue of expression among countless. For me, my time in front of the altar is a very important venue of expression because this is such a private setting. It’s just me and my closest Beloveds, free from the pressure of other factors in my life. Sometimes I talk to Them, sometimes I just sit. Sometimes I take a lot of time, sometimes less. I need to work on making sure this time is a genuine and as honest as I can make it. This way, hopefully, I can learn to see my interior world with greater clarity and honesty in turn.